F0ck yeah, I'm delirious

The full means empty and empty is all over.
I know nothing but your face, your silencing murder.
The cold won't bite me, the rain won't fall,
My heart just stopped beating, devoid is of all.

My voice is a shriek, as loud as the wind
Hope is the grey in a world full of tint.
The smell of tobacco I'd surely rewind
The touch of your smile I can't keep in mind.

I keep my speeches short cause they all betray
The mock of a reason that's long gone away
The sound of a fight forgotten and lost
My fingers got broken from keeping them crossed.

I'm walking in mine fields each time I give thought
Like spy scouts all beaten 'n' afraid to get caught
And trapped behind lines they don't recognize
They dream to escape but can't close their eyes.

'Corse I'm lying to you, yes, always lying
And what d' you expect? My wits are all dying
Exhaustion, awareness, I'm always on call
And how can I sleep when I hit the wall?

I kiss my own fingers, I'm pretending they're yours
Lie to me pretty or I'm closing all doors
It's the fourth time I write for someone I long
          I know I can't have you
But – f*ck's sake – tell me I'm wrong!